Totally annoyed and frustrated.

Day 1.
No cigarettes.  I stopped taking Chantix - actually, I lost it.  So I stopped.  I wasn't even having side effects, but I literally lost it.
So I'm going clean.  Whew. It hurts.  I'm really trying here....I really want one, but I'm not having one.  I'm not doing it.  Sigh.