Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Wordle?
I'm a dummy and can't figure out how to put Wordle into my blog, so here's what would be there if I could figure it out.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Day To Day
Day to day, minute by minute. Georgeanna emailed me and made a great point, that the loss of a pet makes us realize how precious and valuable life is. It's so easy to take for granted.
We are trying to adjust, in the words of Mackie, to our "New Normal". Its so hard. Friday was my first day of coming home from work and not being greeted by the door. Today was the first time I went grocery shopping and didn't have Victor to search through the bags for treats. And then there is the uneasy feeling. Victor protected me. He made me feel safe.
And then its the noises. I think I hear him but I don't see him. And also I always wake up around 3:30 a.m. for some reason, and I would always stop and pet Victor on my way to or from the refrigerator when I grab my glass of water.
I will start talking about cooking again, soon. I just need to keep on venting for a bit.
We are trying to adjust, in the words of Mackie, to our "New Normal". Its so hard. Friday was my first day of coming home from work and not being greeted by the door. Today was the first time I went grocery shopping and didn't have Victor to search through the bags for treats. And then there is the uneasy feeling. Victor protected me. He made me feel safe.
And then its the noises. I think I hear him but I don't see him. And also I always wake up around 3:30 a.m. for some reason, and I would always stop and pet Victor on my way to or from the refrigerator when I grab my glass of water.
I will start talking about cooking again, soon. I just need to keep on venting for a bit.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Victor Pants Alevizos 5/15/98 - 2/17/10
I can't believe it happened. Neither of us can. I washed both of his beds so he would have them nice and fresh when he came home. I never second-guessed that he would be coming home.
Everything happened so fast, but we know we had to do what was best for Victor.
It's been so hard. We have amazing friends that love us so much, that have offered to do things like make us dinner to cleaning our apartment. Bill and I fell asleep on Victor's bed together last night. I know its probably not healthy, but we had to.
I know that other then just missing him being around, its the loneliness that is going to get me. For Bill, he and Victor had a routine. Bill said today "I have woken up to his face for damn near 12 years" and its so true. They had their gig. As soon as Bill got out of bed Victor was up - they were in total unison.
Leaving today for breakfast (yes, we are trying to feed ourselves) I turned off the T.V. and went straight for the radio. I cried, as I turned it on, telling Bill, "I still have to do this. Victor needs the radio on." It's the first time that there was no guilt leaving. He's not here alone, he's not begging for a cookie. I miss that so much.
We dropped salad on the floor, and its the first time since living with Bill that we had to clean it up. Victor always went running. I haven't picked food off the floor in at least 3 1/2 years.
Eating dinner tonight was sad, too. Victor always laid between us and the table, and if we pulled the table in I would say "Beep beep Victor". But now we just pulled the table in.
Minute by minute, day by day. We are truely sad and suffering right now, trying to be strong because Victor hated when we were sad. Thank God Bill and I have eachother. We are very loving and supportive of eachother. That's what Victor would have wanted.
Everything happened so fast, but we know we had to do what was best for Victor.
It's been so hard. We have amazing friends that love us so much, that have offered to do things like make us dinner to cleaning our apartment. Bill and I fell asleep on Victor's bed together last night. I know its probably not healthy, but we had to.
I know that other then just missing him being around, its the loneliness that is going to get me. For Bill, he and Victor had a routine. Bill said today "I have woken up to his face for damn near 12 years" and its so true. They had their gig. As soon as Bill got out of bed Victor was up - they were in total unison.
Leaving today for breakfast (yes, we are trying to feed ourselves) I turned off the T.V. and went straight for the radio. I cried, as I turned it on, telling Bill, "I still have to do this. Victor needs the radio on." It's the first time that there was no guilt leaving. He's not here alone, he's not begging for a cookie. I miss that so much.
We dropped salad on the floor, and its the first time since living with Bill that we had to clean it up. Victor always went running. I haven't picked food off the floor in at least 3 1/2 years.
Eating dinner tonight was sad, too. Victor always laid between us and the table, and if we pulled the table in I would say "Beep beep Victor". But now we just pulled the table in.
Minute by minute, day by day. We are truely sad and suffering right now, trying to be strong because Victor hated when we were sad. Thank God Bill and I have eachother. We are very loving and supportive of eachother. That's what Victor would have wanted.
Victor hated being picked up, but he never got mad at Bill!
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
More Victor News
Ugh, so today we brought Victor back to the emergency vet. He has moments of old Victor gleaming in his eye, but overall, he isn't any better.
He had some movements, not good ones, and still isn't eating. And for anyone that knows Victor, the dog loves to eat. I know some people might think "It's just a dog, why spend so much money you don't have" and the reason is that we love him like we love a person. Bill has had him from the moment he was able to leave his mom, and that's been 11 amazing years - almost 12 - his birthday is in May.
Considering the vet still cannot find anything wrong with him, gives us the positive belief it could be something as simple as a GI track infection. We are awaiting the results of his lympomia test (from the lymphnodes between his small and large intestine) so we will hopefully know more tomorrow.
This just sucks, though. The house is too quiet. The good news is we can call the vet 24/7 to check up on him. And its a nice hospital - nice big pens, lots of blankets for him to lay on.
We just love our Bunny Pants and we know he's got many good years left.
He had some movements, not good ones, and still isn't eating. And for anyone that knows Victor, the dog loves to eat. I know some people might think "It's just a dog, why spend so much money you don't have" and the reason is that we love him like we love a person. Bill has had him from the moment he was able to leave his mom, and that's been 11 amazing years - almost 12 - his birthday is in May.
Considering the vet still cannot find anything wrong with him, gives us the positive belief it could be something as simple as a GI track infection. We are awaiting the results of his lympomia test (from the lymphnodes between his small and large intestine) so we will hopefully know more tomorrow.
This just sucks, though. The house is too quiet. The good news is we can call the vet 24/7 to check up on him. And its a nice hospital - nice big pens, lots of blankets for him to lay on.
We just love our Bunny Pants and we know he's got many good years left.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Victor Pants is Sick
This is has been a tough week. Victor has been sick again, and last time we just took a stool sample to the vet (TMI, I know) but this time we brought him in.
My poor bunny - was was there on Friday 2/12/10 from 9:00 - 5:30 on an IV, and they did a bunch of tests and x-rays and blood work. And a very large bill later and a second vistit today, they still don't know what is wrong with him.
It's misery. Now he's not eating, which is the most terrifing thing. Victor has been known to eat poop off the street. Seriously. He will eat anything. So this is the worst. And he's on 3 prescriptions that we have to give him, and the only way to give a dog a pill is with food.
My heart is breaking. Just breaking. I am happy that the vets can't find anything wrong with them, but still I am so frustrated. X-Ray after X-ray and test after test after test. Bill is trying to hand feed him chicken. Just a little something. I just want Victor to be old Victor again, happy and healthy. My dog. My bunny pants. My Victor. Bill's Victor. Our dog-child. We love him so much and we're both so scared.
My poor bunny - was was there on Friday 2/12/10 from 9:00 - 5:30 on an IV, and they did a bunch of tests and x-rays and blood work. And a very large bill later and a second vistit today, they still don't know what is wrong with him.
It's misery. Now he's not eating, which is the most terrifing thing. Victor has been known to eat poop off the street. Seriously. He will eat anything. So this is the worst. And he's on 3 prescriptions that we have to give him, and the only way to give a dog a pill is with food.
My heart is breaking. Just breaking. I am happy that the vets can't find anything wrong with them, but still I am so frustrated. X-Ray after X-ray and test after test after test. Bill is trying to hand feed him chicken. Just a little something. I just want Victor to be old Victor again, happy and healthy. My dog. My bunny pants. My Victor. Bill's Victor. Our dog-child. We love him so much and we're both so scared.
Friday, February 12, 2010
I Want!
554 N ARTESIAN Ave, CHICAGO, IL 60622 | MLS# 07383804
I have always wanted this house. It's so cute and tiny and great.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Superbowl...I mean Booberbowl 2010
For so,so, so, so many years, my best guy John and I have celebrated the Superbowl. We call it "Booberbowl" becuase of the Janet Jackson incident, and I was FOR SURE that that was going to be the media nickname for it.
So honestly, we were simply at Goldyburgers. My fav fav fav burger joint in Forest Park. Royle Blue bitches! Yummy burger with crispy bacon and blue cheese, which oozes off the side of the burger that seeps onto the French fries. Sigh..... Well, we were here last year for the Superbowl, and all the free appitizers were so good and amazing this year, better then before! So we had quite a few pitchers of beer, and I never got my Royal Blue out of fullness, but basically, the pictures follow after the jump.
So honestly, we were simply at Goldyburgers. My fav fav fav burger joint in Forest Park. Royle Blue bitches! Yummy burger with crispy bacon and blue cheese, which oozes off the side of the burger that seeps onto the French fries. Sigh..... Well, we were here last year for the Superbowl, and all the free appitizers were so good and amazing this year, better then before! So we had quite a few pitchers of beer, and I never got my Royal Blue out of fullness, but basically, the pictures follow after the jump.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
My Six-Year Addiction
Behind the Scenes of LOST
There are very few things on television I can give a crap about. I mean, I enjoyed Arrested Development as much as the next person, along with some gems like 30 Rock, Project Runway or The Greatest American Hero.
Regardless, I LOVE LOST. I have been waiting nine long months for the final season premier of LOST, which was February 2. And it was amazing. It's like a good friend that I have to say goodbye to, or something. I can't believe its ending. On purpose. People that love LOST have a strong commitment to all the secrets and puzzles. And I'm so glad to have so many like minded friends that agree!
I will be sad to stop seeing Josh Holloway, aka Sawyer, for my weekly eye candy.
There are very few things on television I can give a crap about. I mean, I enjoyed Arrested Development as much as the next person, along with some gems like 30 Rock, Project Runway or The Greatest American Hero.
Regardless, I LOVE LOST. I have been waiting nine long months for the final season premier of LOST, which was February 2. And it was amazing. It's like a good friend that I have to say goodbye to, or something. I can't believe its ending. On purpose. People that love LOST have a strong commitment to all the secrets and puzzles. And I'm so glad to have so many like minded friends that agree!
I will be sad to stop seeing Josh Holloway, aka Sawyer, for my weekly eye candy.
But the excitement does continue throughout the season, as it unfolds with the many questions we as viewers have. So I cheers whoever, which is no one, that reads this blog, to my fellow LOST fans, that we have a great final season, and hopes that there will be lots of answers to come.
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